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Name--> NYX Gary
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Update!
So much things happen in so little time.
HSO(Hair Salon Operation) project got shove up my ass and caught me by surprise. The best of all, I have forgotten that this Thursday, there is a phase test - Men's Haircut.
I was in serious trouble.
Mr Lim apparently isn't very happy that I have been skipping school for the past term, and most of it, theory lessons. But I shall prove to him, I can catch up. I guess this might be a time to put what I have learnt during my absence into good use.
Still, making a teacher who expects you to do great things to lose his trust on you is definitely not a good thing. But if you were to see it in my way - It's actually a burden off my shoulders. The formula that leads to my downfall is this:
Stress + Pressure from higher-ups + Expectations = A large decrease in the speed of my ability to absorb and learn things.
But on the brighter side, I manage to find a model.
He is none other than Ong Zi Yang(Seth).
He is none other than Ong Zi Yang(Seth).
After school, I went to Starbucks at West Coast Plaza to slack. I studied a bit while waiting for Seth to arrive. When he arrived, we simply sit down there and talk about stuffs.
I got bored and eventually asked him to pose for me.
I borrowed a pencil from him and started drawing him.
I borrowed a pencil from him and started drawing him.
When Gordon arrive, I did the same thing too.
My phone battery was out, and Gordon is kind enough to let me use his phone. I was anticipating a call - From my baby girl.
And as usual, she did. Though we only manage to chat a bit.
When I reach home, she was waiting for me online. (so good right?)
Chat with her over MSN(finally, its working!) and through Facebook.
And I receive a very special message from her.
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My teacher gave us an essay on love. What is love? Define love. Who to love? Does it last? How do I know that's love? I once read this article on love. It was written by a little girl.
'I know mommy loves daddy because mommy always saves the best piece of chicken for daddy.'
If love is something so simple, why can't we apply it? Why can't we all love? Why does love hurt? Why is it a broken heart can never recover? Or can it? The truth is the world is bitter and cold. Life works that way to strengthen us so that we can fight back, a training for us to withstand the pain.
Love is the start of a new beginning. Why? Like a flower, it blossoms, withers, fades into ashes and gets returned to where it came from. Love is experience and experience is the best teacher. I've had my share of love. Sad to say, I've had a fair share of a broken heart as well as breaking hearts. I guess I'm afraid of love. I fear I may love more than I'm supposed to. I fear I'll have a change of heart. I fear my love will turn into hatred but most of all, I fear the pain and grief that comes with it.
I loved my idol, my best friend. Until I was betrayed and shamed. I loved my first boyfriend. Not realizing how he made love to another. I loved many guys after that. Only to end up crying again and again. By the time everything was over, I gave up on love.
Not long ago, I discovered the true meaning of love. Questions answered and more. What is love? Love is hearing laughter, seeing smiles and having fun being yourself with those who care about you. Love is thinking your heart is dead and something revives it. Love is the ability to share something precious to you. Define love. Love is something inside you, it's always there. Who to love? Love those who are willing to give their lives to protect you. Does it last? It has an expiry date tagged all over it, eternity. How do I know that's love? Simple.
I love you.
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I'm speechless, but happy. Very very very happy.
And I want you to know that I love you too.
So baby girl,
Take my hand, and you shall see Eternity.
Ich Liebe Dich.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
My oh my... Its been so long since I last updated.
*BEWARE, LONG POST DETECTED*
To tell you the truth.
I have gotten lazy when it comes to blogging.
To tell you the truth.
I have gotten lazy when it comes to blogging.
The inspiration to blog just fades every time I log in.
Just a brief update, I guess.
A lot of things happened - Both happy and sad.
Happy events will be such as Jason's Wedding.
Before I go for Jason's and Sheryl's Wedding Dinner, I had to go orchard first. Why?
It was also Greg's birthday!
Meet up with the rest of the sparring group and we took a 15mins walk from Orchard MRT to somewhere near Tanglin mall there. Greg's house is hard to find. -_-"
When we reach, it was an eye opener.
The outside dont really attract my attention, but the inside... Wooooaaaahhh... It's really nice.
Nope, definitely not luxuriously nice, but more to the kind of simple with a pinch of luxury. Most people who attended Greg's birthday celebration are Caucasians, with some Atas. He also turn his birthday celebration into something quite unique.
There is no cake.
There is only Pie. D:
In addition, there are various food there. But certainly not something we see everyday. Salad, some very sour white sauce with cucumber/capsicum inside, and many more. It was nice, but definitely not for singaporean's taste it's your first time trying it. There are many beers and wine, but the good me did not drink them. :)
Why? The answer will unfold, so dont rush. :D
Check the time. It's 6.35pm.
Alright, I gotta go. So I wishes Greg the usual birthday wishes and left.
As I was walking, I am planning in my head:
Alright, I gotta go. So I wishes Greg the usual birthday wishes and left.
As I was walking, I am planning in my head:
Will I be late if I take the train then take the bus?
Looking at the time. I decided it's best to take a Taxi. So I went to Tanglin Mall and waited for a cab at the taxi stand. It didn't take long for one to come by - this area is a rich man's zone after all. :x
What I predicted was correct. I soon got caught up in a traffic jam at Mountbatten Road. If I had taken a bus from Paya Lebar MRT, I will most probably be screwed real bad. Lucky me!
But the jam did affect me. The taxi couldnt move much. We are stop at every traffic lights! Even the taxi driver was agitated. The shortest route was jam-pack with cars and bus, and we only move 4m before the cab have to stop all the time. So the taxi driver and I got real sick and tired of waiting, and we took a longer way instead.
Good thing the traffic aint that bad on the longer route. But the thing is... When I reach...
<_<
>_>
-_-"
Where is everyone? D<
The only people present there are the old folks and Sheryl's side of the family and friends. Where are the rest of the teenagers/young adults that are suppose to here at my table? D<
Haiz, I guess it's the traffic at fault. -_-"
All in all, the dinner was great. But we didn't really receive good service though. The AUNTY that is serving us is really crappy. Do things so rough. Like, how did she expect us drink our wine when she cant even pour properly!? *facepalm*
A few drops of wine went wasted because of her carelessness.
Haiz, even I can do better than this. -_-"
We keep drinking and drinking. Not a chance to rest at all. :(
Both me and Jackson already felt heavy. He had to drink with a lot with my uncle(seeing that he is my cousin's boyfriend), and I had to drink because Aunty Anne wants me to drink with her for not appearing at most of my family's event. *facepalm*
Worse, I dont know why this have to happen, but my dad - who dont drink at all - come over to my table and make everyone drink. Being his son, I have to finish the glass with him. Crap thing is, I just refilled it. *facepalm*
After that, me and Jackson went out to get some fresh air.
Our head seriously hurts and haiz, we just feel so heavy all of a sudden. -_-"
Its a good thing he had the mint sweet 'halls', with him. It helps a lot.
Went back for photo-taking and then realized that, we all, are to go Eski Bar at Clark Quay to drink more. Why? To celebrate the october babies.
Which means - Me, Calista, Cindy-sis, Da-ge.
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Fast forwarding...
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At Eski Bar. Trust me, Im already drunk.
There are times where I go to the toilet with the feeling that im going to puke, but it didnt happen.I keep spamming on ice water trying to stay sober. D<
But never got the chance because we had to drink Green Fairy and Waterfall. *facepalm*
While drinking Green Fairy, I accidentally let the fire 'burn' my throat. The fiery feeling is unforgettable, in a bad way. T.T
After Waterfall, I didnt drink anymore. I just keep spamming on water to stay sober.
After that, quickly went home in a cab with Da-ge and Er-ge. By the time I reach home, I simply change out and collapse to sleep. -_-"
I shall stop here.
Sorry for the abrupt ending but...
I lazy to post on the sad part, so too bad. >D
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Things just went so wrong at the start of the holidays.
Look, yesterday was the start of my holiday and guess what?
I was forced to update to the latest MSN and bingo, most of my important contacts are gone and I cant add them back. Best of all, neither can they add me back.
I was forced to update to the latest MSN and bingo, most of my important contacts are gone and I cant add them back. Best of all, neither can they add me back.
Secondly, with the holidays here and now, there is nothing for me to do.
Running today is impossible now that the reservoir is wet and the sun is never out for the entire day...
My computer ain't for gaming now that it's 7 years old.
Running today is impossible now that the reservoir is wet and the sun is never out for the entire day...
My computer ain't for gaming now that it's 7 years old.
My room light have to go kaboom...
My fastest internet browser, Google Chrome, recently lagged like nobody business and literally forbids me to load pages if it aint loaded within a minute.
All these is shit.
I feel as if I was thrown into D-Day at Normandy with only rubber rounds and dud grenades as weapons.
I feel as if I was thrown into D-Day at Normandy with only rubber rounds and dud grenades as weapons.
Well, I guess I just have to be grateful that at least I have rubber rounds and dud grenades to fool people...
Haiz, but still, if I dont blog about this, this stupid feeling just wont go. Looks like I'm still far from being grateful to things around me. I guess the last thing I can be grateful to will be myself though.
I have promised myself that I will change, so I will.
I have promised myself that I will change, so I will.
All this, is for the greater good.
All this, is for everyone around me.
All this, is for myself...
All this, is for everyone around me.
All this, is for myself...
Change I can!
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On a side note to my friends out there.
What am I to you? Honestly answer me.
What am I to you? Honestly answer me.
If I'm just someone who you come to ONLY when you have a problem or situation in life that you cant get over, please... Don't call me a friend. Call me a consultant instead.
If I'm just someone who you come to ONLY when you want to rant about someone or something that keeps floating around in your mind, please... Don't call me a friend. Call me a thrash can instead.
If I'm just someone who you come to ONLY when all else fails for you and wanted someone that you can punch and wont retaliate to release your anger, please... Don't call me a friend. Call me a punching bag instead.
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Perhaps I say those due to my fatigue.
But yeah, sometimes, despite knowing the reasons...
But yeah, sometimes, despite knowing the reasons...
Or sometimes, despite knowing that I shouldn't expect anything in return...
I still need to rant.
Yeah, I'm just a human after all.
It's hard to walk on the path of heaven...
But nevertheless, I shall keep trying.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Hey people~
Im back to blogging and this time, it's Yours Truly - Definitely not my shithead of a Sister. :)
These consecutive days of Chalet is taking a toll on me.
Though I feel very tired, I feel as if I can go on - like my energy is limitless.
Let's start on Sunday.
I went to the Chalet at 10++pm!!! Because of work.
When I reach Pasir Ris, I meet up with Hong Wei and we travelled to Downtown East and then to the chalet after we bought our food. :)
Jimmy was playing Metal Slug with his friend! D<
Went to eat our food, with Hong Wei being a smart guy by spilling his own green tea. :D
Eat liao we practically slack. Then obviously, we started drinking. Drink and drink and drink and drink and drink...
I was ok, but was feeling very very hot. Slept throughout the night and woke up in the morning.
Now, Monday.
Went for breakfast at Macdonald. Then, Jimmy have to report back to camp because of some certain incident. Hong Wei went to some OG outing of his... Ian went home and sleep...
Im left to take care of Jimmy's Chalet. -_-"
Literally rotted until Ian arrived.
Watch 'Hangover' with him at the chalet while waiting for the rest.
Watch 'Hangover' with him at the chalet while waiting for the rest.
When its near late evening, I called Acktosh and then quickly get changed to meet them at Changi Airport.
Julia is leaving Singapore.
Went there and literally rotted at Popeye's with them. Dicussed about the AFA competition and plan some stuffs. Then, we see Julia off.
Hohoho, my radar detected some love in the air, so when I turn to look at Acktosh, he is kissing Julia! >D
Muahahaha~! Im one of the lucky few(like only 2 out of 6 people) to catch that moment of ________ (fill in the blank with your own words, I dunno what to put!)
Then, return to the chalet and great, Jimmy aint back from camp yet!
Only Hong Wei is there.
Ian went back home to sleep. -_-"
Then, I went over to Ong's friend's chalet and slack.
Drink red wine and some french liquor/liquier/whatever you spell it as punishment.
Drink red wine and some french liquor/liquier/whatever you spell it as punishment.
Seeing that I come from a family who drink and drink at almost every event possible...
All these are nothing to me. but I still cant drink Vodka, though. :)
When it's getting late, I returned to Jimmy's Chalet and there he was!
Quickly showered and went to sleep.
Now, Tuesday.
Wake up early in the morning and quickly rush to school.
Bloody hell.
There were only 8 people present! D<
There were only 8 people present! D<
Only two have models!
The rest of us do saikang! D<
This is epic. -_-"
Return home and slacked till like a short while then Gordon called. -_-"
Meet him at Eunos and follow him to meet up with his friend.
Hmp, I never thought I will step foot in that area again... Haiz.
In the end, it's just some MLM stuffs he got me into. -_-"
Well, anything, after listening to all these stuffs, I went back to Ong's friend's chalet.
I didnt drink anything. Just go there and slack out.
Overall, I was already tired and really didnt feel like doing anything.
So yeah, I went home.
Thanks for talking to me for the first half of my trip back home, shitty sis. :)
Overall, I was already tired and really didnt feel like doing anything.
So yeah, I went home.
Thanks for talking to me for the first half of my trip back home, shitty sis. :)
And thanks for talking to me for the next half of my trip back home, Lynn. :)
Reached home and immediately collapsed.
Now, Today.
IM SO SCREWED.
IM SO SCREWED.
I WOKE UP AT 12++
*facepalm*
Completely missed my test. -_-"
Im so gonna die.
I can forsee my first 'Love' letter from my teacher le. T.T
Im so gonna die.
I can forsee my first 'Love' letter from my teacher le. T.T
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Hellloooooooo everybody,
Gary's loving and lovable sister is here to help that gay bro of mine blogged.
Since he wants a change in his blog, i shall spoil everything here.Laughs. Alright, i have been mugging the whole day but i still don't feel that i am fully prepared for the prelims paper on monday. But well, i have faith in myself as i have worked hard for the past few days. Anyway, due to being too bored, i took some un-glam photos and so i decided to share with all of you. You may laugh at it if you want, i don't really give a damn. Overall, just enjoy the photosssssss.
Dear bro,
i am broke ; i need moneyyyyyy.
;D
&
LIVERPOOL WONNNNNNNNNN ! You will never walk alone. WOOOOOOOOOO!
Monday, September 7, 2009
First of all, I would like to address this to all my dear friends and my comrades.
Yesterday I did not have a good day. A fever struck me as I was working and I was given an early leave.
When I reached home, instead of rest, I proceed to coming online to chat with you guys, and to read my mangas.
An unforturnated incident occurred because of me. I tried to stand in a middle of what I see as an incoming war. Both sides of the party,were important people to me. They are my dear friends, very close friends.
With my brain overheating already, I cant think. I said the first thing that comes into my mind, and without processing it of course.
During this time, I'm already very frustrated. I tried to stay calm and think, but apparently, even the usual, calm and compose me failed to remain calm.
I reach my human limits and I started rampaging.
As I rampages on and on and on, I hurt both side of the party and some of my friends and comrades. I even threw a tantrum at various friends and comrades, to the extend of even trying to end the friendship.
I failed. As a friend and as a comrade, I failed. When I manage to cool myself down by following one of my comrade's idea to punch the wall, I apologize to everyone.
Some replied, some didn't.
I knew I have crossed the line. I have literally drop a planet buster on each and everyone of you. I knew no matter how many years or months of friendship I have with you guys and girls, such a wound can never heal, be it by action or by words, I can never heal them up.
It's my fault. I couldn't gain control of my own anger and other destructive emotions. Saying that my fever is one of the reasons that trigger this will be just an excuse in everyone's eyes now.
I'm sorry, my dear friends and comrades. Though a few of you no longer see me as someone you can count on anymore, I just want you to know that if there is anything I can do to make up for my sins, tell me, and I will do anything. I really mean anything.
This is not buying friendship. I'm doing this so I myself can feel better. Some of you wants me to remember this mistakes as an everlasting wounds on myself... As for this, you dont have to worry. Its already a wound in my life to mark that I am a worthless fool who doesnt know what he is doing. I can only apologize and apologize all day long...
In my entire life as it is now, yesterday marks the worst day of my life. It marks the day where I have lose sight of myself and have hurt many friends. I do not expect everyone to forgive me, but if it is possible, please forgive me for my rudeness and sudden outburst of rage.
And for those of you who didnt know, that kinda shows how I was back then... Agitated at every little things. Back then, I thought I by closing up the doors to my heart, I can form a fortress to protect others from me. Yeah it did.
But ever since I open these doors, I have seen nothing but anger and sorrow in my friends' eyes.
I do not know what to do for now, other than closing my doors once more. I shall never open it to anyone unless each and everyone of you - my dear friends and comrades that I have hurt, tells me to.
Im very sorry.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Ok fine.
I have no intention of updating this actually.
I had the intention to post some pictures taken at the Natsu Matsuri, but here is the problem.
My blogger dashboard and posting page got problem!
It happen on my Mozilla Firefox,Google Chrome and Safari. This results in me unable to post pictures, and worse - I cant even bold my words!
This is seriously shit.
Well, Natsu Matsuri was fun, but I keep wearing the same old Yukata! D:
Need to get a new one soon. :3
Nothing much have been happening actually.
But I do know one thing.
I NEED MODELS!
People who wants to colour their hair without bleaching, be it strangers who chanced upon this blog or my friends, contact me~! I need model on every Tuesday Morning, 8am and Friday Morning, 8am. You will have to pay $8 if your hair is short, $12 if its medium(shoulder length), $16 if its long. I know it sucks, getting model to pay for amateur services, but the money is used buy colour products for our practice uses. We use it almost everyday! I do not mind paying half of the price, if needed. :D
But on the September 9, 2009, I need someone with hair at shoulder length or longer, and have never done colour to their hair before(virgin hair). Why?
ITS FOR MY TEST!!! SOMEONE, ANYONE, HELP~~!!!!
I also need a model for haircut, its free. Every Thursday, 9am. Anyone is welcomed. Please, trust my skills! D:
So if you wanna get your haircut or coloured, do contact me~! Just post on my tagboard that you are interested, I will get back to you. :)
Hehehe, also.
I receive enlightenment. Perhaps that is the reason why I'm able to stay rather happy all the time now? :D
Though at the cost of this, my health seems to decline recently.
To make matter worse, I have been MIA-ing from school often! Most of them are theory lessons, which I have confidence in catching up in a split second, that is why I decided to rest at home on some theory days to better rest my already tired body and mind. Most of my personal problems, I have already settled them!
Now, I need some fun.
And, I should try out some new stuffs.
I'm so gonna tatoo that one word(in traditional chinese) on my left chest, big and red. >:3
Those who knows it, ssssshhhhhhhh~
Gotta keep it a secret ok~?
I won't make your life good if you guys reveal it~ :)
Think it's time.
Operation: 'Get that body!' - officially commence~
Cannot slack le, it's time to say goodbye to my belly and welcome the abs! :D
I shall - Go school gym, to do weights | Go swimming, to relax muscles and stretch | Shadow-Boxing, to sweat it out | Shin-Kendo and Spear arts, for the posture | Go reservoir, to run that 6.5km once or twice a week.
I can do it, because change I can~! (think Obama)
Well, that is all about what I have to update.
There won't be any pictures until the pages works properly for me once more, very sorry people. :(
Oh yeah, before I forget...
To my idiot of a sister, Maureen.
You better be doing your regular studying and cultivating your self-discipline! D<
*facepalm*